Wednesday, March 6, 2013

How do I apologize?

I need to apologize to someone for saying (writing) something wrong, but I don't have any way to contact this person, so I'm putting it here.  (If it's you, I think you'll know.) I wrote something in response to something, having my heart in the right place but my words not so much.  Fortunately, the person did not publish it, and for that I am thankful. 

I didn't think it through carefully enough.  That was a mistake.  I was writing with my emotions and not thinking about how the comment would come across.  I just want to say that I'm sorry if it hurt you or made things harder for you.  That was never my intention and I have wished that I could email you to say it more personally.  I hope that things are all right and that you are doing okay.  I hope that you understand what my intentions were (although we all know where that road goes.  Right, the one paved with those good intentions?) and that I did not mean to sound callous or to be rude in any way. 


To all of you, I am certainly not perfect and I know I mess up sometimes.  I try to be a nice person as much as I can and I know in my personal life I fail miserably sometimes!  It's hard to admit I did something wrong, and harder when I can't say it right to the person who needs to hear it. But to me, it's even worse sitting around thinking about the thing I messed up, even when it wasn't intentional.  So as unpleasant as it is to apologize publicly (sort of) and admit that I made a mistake (because I HATE making mistakes), I know that this is the right thing.  And no, not just so I will feel better, because to be honest, I won't, and that's okay.  Because it's not about my feelings right now.


So again, I am so sorry I messed up.


1 comments:

Liz Mays said...

I've known you in this space for long enough to know with certainty that you would NEVER do anything to purposely hurt someone. You are one of the kindest, sweetest, most thoughtful people in this space and I'm sorry that your words may have been misconstrued.

You need to forgive yourself though and let it go. I think we've all been in that position and it's unfortunate but it does happen. It's hard to express in words what we mean to say sometimes, but please let it go, sweet friend.

Your heart is pure!